WHEN WE ARRIVE AT ETERNITY'S SHORE

I have really been convicted by this thought lately, and I think Francis Chan sums it up really well in his book, "Crazy Love":


"A person who is obsessed thinks about heaven frequently. Obsessed people orient their lives around eternity; they are not only fixed on what is here in front of them."


God has been convicting me about this for months now, and as hard as I may try to ignore it, it keeps jumping to the forefront of my mind. In our culture, we are constantly consumed with the desire for the "American dream". Most of us want that six figure income, 2 story house in the suburbs, nice cars, attractive spouse, 2 1/2 kids. I can't lie to myself and say that this desire doesn't well up inside me constantly, but in my heart I know that God is calling me to something else, something greater.



I find myself thinking about life on earth way too much. "Will I be able to find a job after college?", "Will I be financially secure in my adult life?", "Will I find a man who loves me unconditionally and get married?" Frankly it's exhausting worrying about all of these things constantly. What I have realized, and what I still struggle to find the will to do every day is to channel the time and energy I put in focusing on those things, to fix my eyes on the eternal. What am I doing that glorifies God, and makes a difference in the context of eternity?



When I became a business major, I told myself that it was because when I went into the mission field, I wanted to have training in something that could actually make a difference. However, I had another hidden motive. I wanted to have a degree in a field that could potentially make money once I was out of the mission field. My ultimate goal was to put myself in a position where I could live comfortably when it was all said and done, and I am so ashamed of that. I don't want this to seem like i'm saying that the American dream is a bad thing, but in the scope of my life, I am using it selfishly. A huge part of me thinks that my transferring schools, and most likely switching majors is the Lord's way of humbling me, and saying "now's your chance to get it right." I want so desperately to live my life the way that I was created to. Standing at eternity's shore.