"You say life is waiting for the ones who lose control..."

Sometimes, my blondness just comes out…it’s inevitable. I had no clue until this afternoon that there is a hurricane coming toward Texas and Mexico that is expected to hit in the next couple of days. It suddenly donned on me that that was probably why my neighbor was talking about evacuating on her facebook page. Duh, right? Our team started to talk about it, and I did a little research on my computer, and the storm is expected to make landfall way south of us, so why are people evacuating? Why are there signs on the highway telling people to fill up their gas tanks? I think I this is a testament to the fact that it is in our nature as humans to worry. Often times we have the tendency to automatically assume the worst. Thomas Williamson then proceeded to go on one of his crazy rants saying stuff like, “See Caroline, this is why you shouldn’t worry because even though you got into A&M, you could die from this hurricane, so it doesn’t mean anything anyway!!”…or something like that. 
As some of you may or may not know, I was a student at Baylor University last year, but due to a variety of reasons, I had to make the decision to transfer. I knew instantly where I wanted to go, so I applied to Texas A&M in the middle of my spring semester. There were a number of problems that went along with this. 1) I had already signed a lease on an apartment for the following school year in Waco, 2) I may not have enough transferrable hours to qualify to transfer to A&M, and 3) The competitiveness in applying to the A&M Business School was astronomical. I knew my chances of being admitted weren’t great, so I decided that if I didn’t get in right away, I would go to Blinn College in Bryan until I had enough credits. However, there was still the problem of the apartment. The only way to be released from my lease was to find a subleaser to take it over. I did everything I could…put up fliers, advertised on facebook, and a Baylor real estate website, and I got a few responses, but they all fell through. I’m not too proud to admit that I went through a serious crisis in my faith during this time. My parents kept telling me that it would all work out, and God was in control, but I could not bring myself to trust Him. I broke down into tears almost every day, and had this perpetual feeling of anxiousness. The last week of school came, and I still hadn’t found someone, when one day my roommate for the following year texted me telling me that she had found someone, and they wanted to go sign the lease right away. I couldn’t believe it. It was like this enormous weight had just been lifted off of my shoulders. So now that that was taken care of, all I had to do was wait for my admission decision from A&M. Like I said before, I knew my chances weren’t great, so I kept telling myself, and others that I probably wasn’t going to get in, so Blinn was ok. I just didn’t want to get my hopes up, or set myself up for disappointment, completely ignoring the fact that God was in control, and that nothing was impossible for Him. Lo and behold, I log onto my A&M account this morning…all I saw was “Congratulations!”, and that was enough for me to jump out of bed, run downstairs, tell my mom, hug her, and start crying. NOTHING was impossible for God because only He and I know that this didn’t happen because of anything I could have done. It was enough for me to realize that He has a plan for me, and I had no reason to doubt Him.
I’ve always said that Matthew 6:25-34 is one of my favorite passages of Scripture. It talks about not worrying because ultimately, God is in control, and like the lilies of the field, he will not let us be without. The Bible says, “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you”. There it is…in black and white. Why do we worry? Why do we doubt? If Hurricane Alex hit Houston at a category 5, and I was to die today or tomorrow…none of that would even matter. I spent too much time and energy worrying about something that was beyond my control, and God provided.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord; plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11